Dreams are just that....dreams

A blurred image of You in my eyes,
A bit of your voice...a line or two,
And an ocean of memories of days that were
Was what I had treasured all through...

When I'd close my eyes,I'd see You there
I couldn't let You go again this way,
So I'd reach out for You..
But as always You would slowly fade away...

Then I knew the difference between dreams and reality
Everything else was real...You remained a dream
A mirage that frequented my thoughts
Which I could feel but not own it seemed...

And I would wonder why distance didn't matter
And why time had not erased
Even a bit of your presence in my life...
Seasons came and went,but my dream...it stayed.

Then I suddenly found You...
Is it a dream?Or will You stay...
When i reach out to stop You this time
Will You again walk away?

I'm scared to open my eyes this time
I want time to stop...stand still
Lest You disappear like You always did,
I'll be broken more than ever...really will.

Yet I cross my fingers and gather strength
Open my eyes as I whisper a prayer...
You are still standing...the blurred image much clearer
Just tell me I'm not dreaming..and that You'll always be there...

The Road To Nowhere

My first step on this road to nowhere,

Was the heaviest of them all...

I looked back once....

And tried so hard to stop...

Yet there was something that shimmered at a distance...

It beckoned me...

Mesmerised,enchanted,spellbound...

I tread along...

Then it became easier to leave a bit of me each time I stopped,

Certainly felt lighter after letting go of my Conscience...

It was ridiculous! It tried to stop me time and again...

Didn't It know where my happiness lay?

I got rid of It and carried on...

One more step, yet another one

Further away from the rest of the world,I followed my illusion...

Thoughts kept gushing into my mind,

Not many made sense....

The usual turmoil....and a numbness thereafter...

Preserving my sanity got tough,the road was rough,

And I but alone...

A part of me still pulled me back,

But I refused to listen,

I failed to see any reason strong enough to overpower my mind's illusion.

Finally, I'm almost there...just a few more steps...

I pause one last time to look within me...

And this is what I see-

I'm no longer me-I'm split!

A part of myself smirks,while a part of me cries,

Another part consoles me, but I know this part only lies...

I frantically search for the usual shimmer,

Not a trace of it I find...

And I stand shattered...

I know not what I've been walking towards?

But there's no way back...

Only a dead end.